There is so much to say and so little space for words to come out written. I’ll start by saying the journey began so long ago with a little girl who felt pains she did not understand to now, a woman who is feeling a pain I can understand and a hope even greater. Every ending leads to a new beginning, so here we will begin in the middle of the adventure because there is no better place to start than at the moment I chose me and healing over all else. This is my middle, the ending leading to the beginning and the beginning of a journey I have avoided. I believe in starting small because all change starts with one small decision and step, it begins with a whisper, with silence, with a tip toe, with the first step in the staircase. It begins by strapping yourself into the side of mountain to prepare for the climb up. So here I will finally write my story beginning in the middle of the adventure with a small blog and a small decision to change.

Pain is not horrendous as many think. It can be a beautiful thing that leads to defining change and a desire to not feel this way anymore. It can catapult you into a new level and humble you into deeper meaning. I have found in my years that when I choose to find hope in my pain it can change the trajectory of my life. Romans 8:28 says And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose. ALL things and who love God stand out to me. So in my pain I find hope for change and for a better future.

I do not know where this will lead but I do know this is a step in my healing journey, right smack in the middle of my adventure.